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Toby and I have broken up and have been for about a month. Matt came and went and I missed him and I have been trying to get a hold of him through text but he hasn't responded yet. I hope that he doesn't think I am mad at him because I'm not it sucked not being able to see him but I'm definitely not mad at him. Things happen...things we can't control and if he had to go back to Ky for work then so be it.

I just want him to talk to me and let me know that things are ok and that he wants to see me still. I wish that the 3 day pass was still an open offer...when he gets back to me I'm going to have to ask him that. My brother is going to be buying my psp off of me at $25 a week until I tell him to stop so I'm thinking about $125-$150 and then if I can take the truck and head down to Ky and see Matt. I checked bus schedules and I couldn't find one that would take me from Dover/New Phila to Fort Knox so if I get this 3 day pass then things should work out nicely and I'll have the money for gas and food...you know as long as gas prices don't get any higher before things get the chance to work themselves out.

I really want to see him and get the chance to be with him and then if things go from there great if not then we can still be friends. I'm hoping that when things work out I can leave early Friday at like noon or one and be there by 6 or 7 and stay until Sunday at noon or one. I really need to talk to him and get things figured out and see if he would like it if I drove down to see him. I figure if I leave early enough in the day then I won't really have to stop to sleep though I will need to rest, go to the bathroom, eat and drink. I really hope that things can work themselves out for both of our sake's.

Alright I better go. I still need a shower and wash my clothes so that I'll have something to wear for the rest of the week. Thursday I have a counseling appointment and I'll have to ask then what time my appointment with Dr. Morris on the 11th of August is at because I lost my paper. Ugh. Stupid me.