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Times are so frustrating right now. I didn't get my tattoo yesterday (5/28/13) because it went way over the $100 credit I have. So now I have until June 19th to collect $128 in order to get my tattoo. Here's to hoping that someone wants to buy my ripple blanket I'm working on. I really need to get Chrystle's blanket done so that I can get the money from her. I really should have asked for half the money up front because this is taking too long to finish.

Jarryd has been getting worse with his tantrums. I am getting worried and I really need to get him evaluated but his pedi won't refer him until she sees him again at his appointment on July 8th. I'm really scared right now. I know this is not normal but no one seems to be taking me seriously except my cousin because she is going through the same things as I am going through.

Anyways, I'm hoping Jarryd doesn't nap too long today. I want to head to Robert's on the boulevard and apply there. I really hope I can get that job. I will take part-time and love it to death. I am off to get a shower and make myself presentable to fill out an application. Please let me get this job. I really, really, really need this job. I am in a sinking ship and getting this job would be like getting rescued by the coast guard.

**Later the same day around 6:10-ish**

Well, I let Jarryd nap the afternoon away. There is no way in fraking hell I was going to wake him up just to go job hunting. I think there are at least 3 different places on the boulevard hiring and I plan on checking all 3 out tomorrow. I would really love this job at Robert's. They sell scrubs and I think it would be awesome to work in a small shop like that. I just hope my job description doesn't include "Embroiderer" because I can't embroider to save my own life.

I have some dinner in the oven and I'm watching the Golden Girls on DVD. I'm still debating on whether or not I should start up my Netflix account or not. I got really into Drop Dead Diva but I'm almost afraid to get into any show because I fear Netflix will just rip it out of its collection, with no warning, like last time. I went to bed watching Hot in Cleveland and woke up to it no longer existing in the Netflix database, not even on DVD.

I am working on the ripple blanket still. I am not sure how I feel about the Spring Green. I hate how great a color looks online but when you see it in person it is the complete opposite of what you expect. There is no turning back now because I don't really have the money to buy another color and honestly I'm thinking about just keeping the 2 skeins I ordered from Jo-Ann Fabrics and just making a small ripple blanket out of it. I think I will just make it 12 points and cut it off before the extra points are added. That way it'll still be fairly big but not huge, a lap blanket if you will or a playmat for kids.

I'm going to work on it some more and see how far I can get before Jarryd wakes up. I just hope that he isn't crabby or in a bad mood. I really can't deal with another tantrum.